Ambushed…By God

“Pursue God and let him ambush your heart!”
God has really been trying to get my attention lately. But I’m finding out way late because I have not given Him my devotion and time. So this past Sunday was our final week of the AMBUSHED series. Gary preached as I set in the back right outside of the sound booth, wiping tears off my face through out the sermon. 

I realized God is moving and trying to get my attention. There are different ways we can be ambushed in life but to think that sometimes the ambushing is Gods doing – at first it sounds so wrong.  But then why did I get a heavy feeling in my stomach and tears falling down my face when I heard those words out loud.

I know it’s been put on my heart to be closer to Him and take time during the day for Him. But I really have not been doing that. So when I sit and think of all the heartache and new change going on in my life – how I’ve been struggling – God was there the whole time trying to get my attention. He is making it to where I have to be growing in His Word and building a better relationship or I am going to go completely mad. 

I need Him. 

It’s taken all these experiences and emotions for Him to grab my attention. I’ve been ambushed! Have I been running from God just like Jonah did – without even realizing what I have been doing? 

God will do anything to get our attention. He’s allowed me to be alone right now. In more ways then just finding my spouse. Something, if I could change, would not be taking so long. He’s brought change into my life at work, to allow me to gain experience and wisdom from situations that beforehand I was just so cozy in my comfort place. 

For Jonah it took being at his lowest point before he realized he needed to start over. A belly of a whale. No thank you! Could you imagine !! 

Currently I’ve been examining my life and my heart because even though I know I’ve done well and have amazing people in my life, God is trying to tell me there is so much more potential that I have. I can’t explain this any further, I’m still trying to figure out what that means. The future is unclear to me and I believe God is shaking me up because I’ve been too comfortable and too much in the same routine. 

I really believe this has been my life lately: Insanity. The definition of the word: doing the same things over and over and expecting different results. 

I wouldn’t say I’ve been living a bad life lately. If anything in certain areas I’ve much enjoyed it because I’ve been doing what I want to be doing. Only making Kelsea happy. 

It’s time to get out of this insanity routine. 

Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. Galatians 5:25 


I’ve Been Loud Long Enough 

I am not a quiet person. That’s a given. I enjoy laughing and talking all the time. I enjoy being around other people so much. It’s probably my favorite thing in the world. I can’t say no to an invitation hardy ever. 

My calendar is packed full because the thought of being home alone in the evening frightens me.Thinking of having no one to talk with, having to entertain myself is not a strong hold I have.  As a single woman, there are situation that others don’t understand have a major negative impact on me. I have been so great for so long with being single lately, understanding that it’s going to happen one day, God has not forgotten about me! But this overcoming fear of being alone; of feeling lonely like I’m the only one sometimes who hears the screaming of fear in my mind. It has become unbearable. 

But I believe that I have been the reasoning for these thoughts and way of feeling right now. I would blame others thinking “they should be more concerned about me! Why didn’t they think to invite me over? Don’t they see I’m all alone if I’m not getting invited or doing the inviting?” It sounds awful and even writing this out I am embarrassed. But I have to be honest. 

With this new realization that these thoughts and this crippling fear of being alone and having to be quiet have been my fault, I’m ready to do something about it. I have let myself go in multiple ways. Not growing spiritually has been the biggest one. 

I have been so concerned about trying not to be alone, planning and adding more to the calendar that I have ignored my Father. I have not set time for Him in my schedule. This has resulted in this feeling constantly hovering over me. With negative thoughts in general, hardening my heart. I’ve never felt this way before and I can tell my heart has been changed and not in a good way at all. I need to stop. I have to stop this way of living or I will never be truly happy in the end and I am scared of what my health will be like too. 

I have to be quiet and I have to be alone in order to hear from God. I have to make the change. No one else can do it for me. 

I need to say NO to things and make priorities on the calendar instead of having it constantly jam packed. I need to go home before 10pm and be ok with it. 

It’s not too late for me, and I know God has been waiting for me to find my way back to Him. I need His love more then ever. I have to start listening instead of talking. If you’re reading this I ask that you will keep me in your prayers. This will not be easy and I need help along the way. 

Here’s to the new silence that will be added to my daily calendar. 

You Don’t Give Your Heart In Pieces 

Today my spirits started off low. 

There are days as I am waiting to see what God has in store for me that I sometimes forget how powerful He is and how wild His love is for me. 

Yes, being a single girl in today’s world is by far anything from glamorous. Days come and go sometimes a blur and others seem like an eternity. I’ve said this before but when one is in a role of leadership it fees like we have to hold it all together. To be a role model for others. Yes, in a way this is true. But I also believe one should show your true colors. Allowing others in to see that we are all working on this earth together for one thing. For His Kingdom. We all have trials and hurts through our journey. But you and I are not alone. 

This is what’s on my heart. Today. Right now. 


Psalm 40:1-17 NIV 

As I read this passage I smiled. My heart began to feel heavy and warm again. Because you see, I can be a sad person focusing too much on what I do not have, what my heart longs for. Or I can be reminded that I am one of the most luckiest girls in the world. For my Lord has saved me from my sins. He has and continues to show me grace, to pure His never ending love on me. 

Psalm 40:1-17 NIV

1 I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry. 2 He lifted me out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. 

Waiting. Patiently. That’s never easy, but look what He says! When we do wait patiently for the Lord, he hears us! Speak to him. Cry out to Him. Tell Him your frustrations. Your loves. Your dreams! He wants to set you up high on solid ground. 

3 He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear the Lord and put their trust in him. 4 Blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord, who does not look to the proud, to those who turn aside to false gods.

In Jesus Name! He gives us new mercies and praise everyday! He puts new thoughts and words in my mouth for all to hear and to see. I fully trust in Him and know He will provide. I will not look to what others have and compare myself. For my God has not forgotten about me. He blesses those who doesn’t look to the proud yet those who trust Him!

5 Many Lord my God, are the wonders you have done, the things you planned for us. None can compare with you; were I to speak and tell of your deeds, they would be too many to declare. 6 Sacrifice and offering you did not desire- but my ears you have opened- burnt offerings and sing offerings you did not require. 

His plans are far more greater then we can imagine on our own!

7 Then I said, “Here I am, I have come— it is written about me in the scroll.  8 I desire to do your will, my God; your law is within my heart.” 9 I proclaim your saving acts in the great assembly; I do not seal my lips, Lord, as you know. 10 I do not hide your righteousness in my heart; I speak of your faithfulness and your saving help. I do not conceal your love and your faithfulness from the great assembly.

I will live for God. I desire to do His will. He lives within my heart. I will not hide this, but shout it!!

11 Do not withhold your mercy from me, Lord; may your love and faithfulness always protect me.  12 For troubles without number surround me; my sins have overtaken me, and I cannot see. They are more than the hairs of my head, and my heart fails within me.  13 Be pleased to save me, Lord; come quickly, Lord, to help me.

My Jesus’ love will protect me. I will face trials I will be lonely. I will long for something I do not have. This will overtake me at times. I won’t know what to do. But my Lord is pleased to save me. To quickly come in and protect me. But you have to say, “come quickly, Lord, to help me.” 

14 May all who want to take my life be put to shame and confusion; may all who desire my ruin be turned back in disgrace.  15 May those who say to me, “Aha! Aha!” be appalled at their own shame.  16 But may all who seek you rejoice and be glad in you; may those who long for your saving help always say, “The Lord is great!”

Jealousy. May I not live life with this Lord and keep those who do away from me! That they would be stopped in their tracks and realize, I realize my twisted ways and thoughts. May I be reminded in these moments of this shame and then seek you over and over again to be rejoiced with gladness for you are great!

17 But as for me, I am poor and needy; may the Lord think of me. You are my help and my deliverer; you are my God, do not delay.

This morning I began my day poor and needy. But He sees me. I cried out for help. Sometimes we don’t have the words. But it’s just being able to stop and just “be in and with Him” that we gain our strength again. He is my help. My deliverer. My God and He will not delay!!!!

I don’t want to be remembered as the girl who never found her man and whilst waiting was sad and lonely. But I also don’t want to feel like I need to hide my feelings. Because I can not do this. I can not live this life day to day alone not showing God’s love for myself and for others. It’s through Him I will make this. He directs my path and I am not going to sit around just waiting. I am going to work hard, communicating and praising to my lord in Jesus name!! He sent my arrow out there. So I’m going to go follow it. 

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Daniel Is Not the Point of the Book of Dainel 

This morning I feel like I’ve been missing out. 

As I’m reading Day 4 of the She Reads Truth Daniel study I am realizing so much about this character in the bible that I never knew. Now given I know with age you understand things differently, but these realizations just make me want to keep reading His word! 

We have this picture of who Dainel was from all the little kids stories we grew up hearing. Daniel and the lions den. Wow. 

Ok moment of truth, I found a tiny TINY mouse in my apartment this past week and freaked out. I didn’t even sleep at my own place that night! I’m so pitiful I know! So when I think about this boy Dainel who had to stay in a den…with a LION…I applaud him! And am glad it wasn’t me. 

But when you read these stories and these lines from the bible I can honestly see how Daniel was able to pull this lion den thing off. 

You see Dainel many times had been convicted and these were Godly convictions. So in return he gained a Godly determination. Dainel was able to accomplish things not just because he had such an amazing will power – but because God was working in him and through him. 

A person may think their own ways are right, but the Lord weighs the heart. To do what is right and just is more acceptable to the Lord than sacrifice.     Proverbs 21:2-3

Daniel was determined. This means he had something set upon his heart. And God helped him with this. I am reminded again of Jeremiah 29:12 where God tells us to come to him. Bring all things to him, he hears us and he will provide for us. 

We need to start thinking hard; what has God placed on your heart? What is He going to help you achieve? How is He going to set determination in you?

It’s time to be determined. 

It’s time to start living a life and faith like Dainel did. 

A person may think their own ways are right, but the Lord weighs the heart. To do what is right and just is more acceptable to the Lord than sacrifice.                    1 Peter 2:15-16

There Is A Problem To Be Acknowledged

This morning I am on Day 2 of the She Reads Truth Daniel bible study.

I was reminded of something:

“There is a problem to be acknowledged. 

There is work to be done.

There is faith to be lived out, not merely proclaimed.” 

Right now my heart is heavy for myself, and also for others in the church. You see…I believe the church is a place that is full of all different kinds of people on many many different journey’s. But, we are here for the same thing. Sometimes I think we get lost in “church” and we become too comfortable. I’m all about comfort…but when it comes to God, and sharing His love, I know it will be comfortable but I also believe if I’m living my life on a daily basis working at being comfortable…I will be missing out. Not only will I be missing out, but I will be hindering others around me from seeing and witnessing God’s love!!

We are called to be a nation who screams out His name! Why are we not screaming?!

My heart hurts because I know I have fallen under this accusation as well. I want to be the one who is SHOWING Christ’ love on a daily basis. Not just talking with my teenagers about His love, but SHOWING them His love. Why has it become “comfortable” to take a seat back? I don’t want to be comfortable anymore.

God say’s in Jeremiah 29:12 “Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, I will listen to you.”

I think this verse gets over looked sometimes…you know the one that goes like this: “For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, …” Great verse. Wonderful verse! But this morning I kept reading after this verse that to me, was “comfortable” because I knew it by heart and it was nothing new to me. But the verse, just right after, HELLO !!! It screamed to me this morning. CRY OUT TO GOD. PRAY TO HIM. ASK HIM AND HE IS LISTENING TO YOU.

Hear my cry O Lord. Create an awakening within my soul that I will live out your love and not only proclaim it! I pray!

11″For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you,” declares the Lord,” and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile.” JEREMIAH 29:10-14 NIV

INFUSE “Till the Day I Die”


Today you all are starting back to school. For some this is a very exciting day! For others…maybe not so. Some of you will be walking the halls of a new school…our new 6th graders with their first look at what middle school really looks like. Then there are those in high school, maybe it’s your senior year…this is your last “first day of high school”.

It doesn’t matter what grade you’re starting today. I hope you know you are being prayed for by many, not only your family but us. I was thinking about you all this morning, I remember the first day of school…it is very exciting but also can be a challenge and not so fun. This morning I was listening to my normal playlist while getting ready for the day, and TobyMac’s latest, “Till The Day I Die” came on. Love it. But I actually took these lyrics and it made me think of INFUSE. It made me think of you. Because you see, I am not walking those halls anymore. Dustin is not playing soccer with high school buddies anymore. Gary is not sitting in a class room with 20 other kids his age. YOU ARE.

So I have a challenge for INFUSE. A challenge for YOU this year.

Be different. Stand out. Do not follow the “normal” because you are by far anything but. You know the truth. You know God’s love. You know His story. You know what you need to do. So why is it so hard to share this love to others who are not living a lifestyle we know God wants from us?

My challenge for you is to walk those halls, sit in those classrooms, play on a team and speak God’s love, show God’s love. Be the SALT + LIGHT.

Read these lyrics:

It’s runnin’ deeper than the ocean
This ain’t religion, it’s devotion
365, every minute, everyday
So in the middle of the madness
They can stretch me out like canvas
But I ain’t ever gonna fit in their frame
Til the wheels fall off
Til the spotlight fades
I will lift your banner high
I will lift your banner high
And til the walls crash in
For the rest of my days
I’ll lay it all on the line
Til the day I die

Tell me what you think about me, that really ain’t important
You know Imma represent um, I ain’t playin’, can’t afford to
I only got one life and I get it though
And this is not an act, not a movie, not a TV show
I don’t know what quittin’ means, I don’t ever take it slow

Do it for the King, what you know about that?
Say you goin’ harder, mmm I doubt that’
You say you doin’ work, but you’re asking where the couch at
How you doin’ work when you asking where the couch at?
God is not a crutch, you can’t use Him when you wanna
You only look to heaven when you goin’ through some drama
And when they goin’ through some problems and that’s the only time they call Him
I guess I don’t understand that life, wonder why?
Cause’ I’m all in
Til the day I die
Go listen to the song, I think you’ll love it just as I do!

Lay it on the line INFUSE. Show God in everything you think, say + do.

Love you,
Kelsea Gale

Feeling YOUTH-full!

It’s almost that time of year…..

Back to School!

As a student I looooooved my summers. But there was something always scary/exciting/fun about going back to school. A new year. Fresh start. 

Now “back to school” since I’m “out of school” has a new meaning to me and one that I am very found of! Because for me “back to school” means, “back upstairs in the INFUSE youth room!” One of my favorite places on earth. 

I’m getting that same feeling as I did as a student today as I’m writing this sitting in the sound booth in the Youth Room during the praise bands first practice since ending school in the spring. 

We don’t use our youth room during the summer on a weekly basis due to our insanely awesome summer program INTRAMURALS. So for myself I miss this room and love when it’s almost time to be back upstairs weekly!

For our students, I pray that in these last days of summer they find themselves feeling this same way and excited to start fresh and be back on their own mission fields, their schools.

I pray our new 6th graders have peace about starting in a new place and feel so much at home when they join us upstairs on Wednesday’s and Sunday’s for LifeGroups. 

17 days and counting and I’m working on my “to-do” list now before all 100 of our students come back and fill these walls with smiles, laughter and craziness! 

I. Can’t. Wait. 🙂 


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Keeping Quiet

As women we have a very hard time keeping quiet. I most certainly know how difficult this can be. You always want to tell stories of things you’ve experienced or something funny you heard.

But sometimes we think we need to speak up about things and then when we do, it bites us in the butt.

It’s late at night…or early this morning and I am finding my mind on a marathon. I’m sleeping under the stars in a tent and I can not fall asleep.

Sometimes we want to say something and then we talk about it to another person (see always talking) but that person helps you see the reasoning behind not making this thing into anything major. Rather it would do more good to not bring it up and mess with a friendship.

Please don’t take this too much to thought as “what is she talking about?” Or “what is she hiding?” Nothing major. And honestly, probably silly to be thinking too much into things. But that’s what I do. I wish I didn’t sometimes, but I always think too much into things.

Just know if you think you need to talk to a friend about something then you should! But if it’s going to take you being the stronger person by being quiet….here’s to trying that out!

It also doesn’t hurt having a great friend who can give you great advice if you’re insure what to or not to do.

Sometimes it’s just hard.

Little late night tent thinking from me to you.

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Summer. Starbucks. Hammocks. Fall.

This weekend I think I’ve actually taken the time to really enjoy and find a slow moment during Summer. And to say it is the beginning of August….maybe I’ve not done such a great job at finding this peace fast enough!

Summer is one of my favorite times of the year (Fall is defiantly first, but Summer is pretty far up there). I think what I love most is the time of year when the Summer heat evenings start to exchange for a more cool temp. Like it has been this past week. I LOVE the transition from Summer to Fall! Tonight I was reminded of the simple things and to take the time to make memories last.

Maybe it took taking Katie & Cooper to Starbucks after rushing to the church for a fun quick time taking a big family photo of Pastor and DeeAnn’s family reunion for us to realize we need to take time to just smile and embrace the simple things in life. Katie was so shocked and excited to get a Starbucks lemon aid with her name spelt correctly! And then again when Cooper and I got the hammock out….the weather is perfect and he asked me to leave him out here and asked if it was ok if he fell asleep out here 🙂 I said, “Of course.”, of course!

So I hope before the summer is completely over you have a chance to stop, and press pause on life. Because you need to be making memories and having fun during these busy and stressful times of our lives.

Just like these two kiddos and myself did tonight!

Cooper enjoying the summer evening air!

Cooper enjoying the summer evening air!

Katie girl loving her Starbucks Lemon Aid!

Katie girl loving her Starbucks Lemon Aid!


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The Simple Truth

By the title of this blog I’m sure you’re expecting to hear something surprising or some juicy news from me!

Well…I do have something to say, about The Simple Truth; for those of you who don’t know, this is actually the title of what took the place of the “One Minute Bible” Simply Youth Ministry sold for years. I got one when I was a senior here with INFUSE Student Ministries. Still have that book to this day. 

There’s a point to this…I’ve been working on our CRAVE (summer camp) Devotional Book for this year. We asked our Youth Pastor’s to submit some devotionals to add to the book. After adding their’s we then filled the rest of the pages with some more material. So yesterday I typed up/read over 20 devotionals. I used this book The Simple Truth and it reminded me of a lot. 

You see this book is designed for students…an easy and yet to the point devotional book to help us remember what is important most. It was brought to my attention that we really take our day’s in this life for granted sometimes. We NEED to be spending daily, hourly time with God. From the pages of this book just within readying a small fraction of it yesterday I feel condemn to have my God time daily and also how prayer is more than just asking for God to fix things, rather it should be us communicating to Him as though we are talking with our best friend. Just tell Him things, laugh with Him…tell Him how you really feel about things. 

Love Him. By spending time with God. Because for crying out loud…He’s the reason we’re here. He gives us these hours in each day.

How will you spend the rest of your days? What will you do with your 24 hours today?

This is just a little simple truth I know 🙂


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