Today my spirits started off low.
There are days as I am waiting to see what God has in store for me that I sometimes forget how powerful He is and how wild His love is for me.
Yes, being a single girl in today’s world is by far anything from glamorous. Days come and go sometimes a blur and others seem like an eternity. I’ve said this before but when one is in a role of leadership it fees like we have to hold it all together. To be a role model for others. Yes, in a way this is true. But I also believe one should show your true colors. Allowing others in to see that we are all working on this earth together for one thing. For His Kingdom. We all have trials and hurts through our journey. But you and I are not alone.
This is what’s on my heart. Today. Right now.
YOU PUT A NEW SONG IN MY MOUTH
Psalm 40:1-17 NIV
As I read this passage I smiled. My heart began to feel heavy and warm again. Because you see, I can be a sad person focusing too much on what I do not have, what my heart longs for. Or I can be reminded that I am one of the most luckiest girls in the world. For my Lord has saved me from my sins. He has and continues to show me grace, to pure His never ending love on me.
Psalm 40:1-17 NIV
1 I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry. 2 He lifted me out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand.
Waiting. Patiently. That’s never easy, but look what He says! When we do wait patiently for the Lord, he hears us! Speak to him. Cry out to Him. Tell Him your frustrations. Your loves. Your dreams! He wants to set you up high on solid ground.
3 He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear the Lord and put their trust in him. 4 Blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord, who does not look to the proud, to those who turn aside to false gods.
In Jesus Name! He gives us new mercies and praise everyday! He puts new thoughts and words in my mouth for all to hear and to see. I fully trust in Him and know He will provide. I will not look to what others have and compare myself. For my God has not forgotten about me. He blesses those who doesn’t look to the proud yet those who trust Him!
5 Many Lord my God, are the wonders you have done, the things you planned for us. None can compare with you; were I to speak and tell of your deeds, they would be too many to declare. 6 Sacrifice and offering you did not desire- but my ears you have opened- burnt offerings and sing offerings you did not require.
His plans are far more greater then we can imagine on our own!
7 Then I said, “Here I am, I have come— it is written about me in the scroll. 8 I desire to do your will, my God; your law is within my heart.” 9 I proclaim your saving acts in the great assembly; I do not seal my lips, Lord, as you know. 10 I do not hide your righteousness in my heart; I speak of your faithfulness and your saving help. I do not conceal your love and your faithfulness from the great assembly.
I will live for God. I desire to do His will. He lives within my heart. I will not hide this, but shout it!!
11 Do not withhold your mercy from me, Lord; may your love and faithfulness always protect me. 12 For troubles without number surround me; my sins have overtaken me, and I cannot see. They are more than the hairs of my head, and my heart fails within me. 13 Be pleased to save me, Lord; come quickly, Lord, to help me.
My Jesus’ love will protect me. I will face trials I will be lonely. I will long for something I do not have. This will overtake me at times. I won’t know what to do. But my Lord is pleased to save me. To quickly come in and protect me. But you have to say, “come quickly, Lord, to help me.”
14 May all who want to take my life be put to shame and confusion; may all who desire my ruin be turned back in disgrace. 15 May those who say to me, “Aha! Aha!” be appalled at their own shame. 16 But may all who seek you rejoice and be glad in you; may those who long for your saving help always say, “The Lord is great!”
Jealousy. May I not live life with this Lord and keep those who do away from me! That they would be stopped in their tracks and realize, I realize my twisted ways and thoughts. May I be reminded in these moments of this shame and then seek you over and over again to be rejoiced with gladness for you are great!
17 But as for me, I am poor and needy; may the Lord think of me. You are my help and my deliverer; you are my God, do not delay.
This morning I began my day poor and needy. But He sees me. I cried out for help. Sometimes we don’t have the words. But it’s just being able to stop and just “be in and with Him” that we gain our strength again. He is my help. My deliverer. My God and He will not delay!!!!
I don’t want to be remembered as the girl who never found her man and whilst waiting was sad and lonely. But I also don’t want to feel like I need to hide my feelings. Because I can not do this. I can not live this life day to day alone not showing God’s love for myself and for others. It’s through Him I will make this. He directs my path and I am not going to sit around just waiting. I am going to work hard, communicating and praising to my lord in Jesus name!! He sent my arrow out there. So I’m going to go follow it.