“Pursue God and let him ambush your heart!”
God has really been trying to get my attention lately. But I’m finding out way late because I have not given Him my devotion and time. So this past Sunday was our final week of the AMBUSHED series. Gary preached as I set in the back right outside of the sound booth, wiping tears off my face through out the sermon.
I realized God is moving and trying to get my attention. There are different ways we can be ambushed in life but to think that sometimes the ambushing is Gods doing – at first it sounds so wrong. But then why did I get a heavy feeling in my stomach and tears falling down my face when I heard those words out loud.
I know it’s been put on my heart to be closer to Him and take time during the day for Him. But I really have not been doing that. So when I sit and think of all the heartache and new change going on in my life – how I’ve been struggling – God was there the whole time trying to get my attention. He is making it to where I have to be growing in His Word and building a better relationship or I am going to go completely mad.
I need Him.
It’s taken all these experiences and emotions for Him to grab my attention. I’ve been ambushed! Have I been running from God just like Jonah did – without even realizing what I have been doing?
God will do anything to get our attention. He’s allowed me to be alone right now. In more ways then just finding my spouse. Something, if I could change, would not be taking so long. He’s brought change into my life at work, to allow me to gain experience and wisdom from situations that beforehand I was just so cozy in my comfort place.
For Jonah it took being at his lowest point before he realized he needed to start over. A belly of a whale. No thank you! Could you imagine !!
Currently I’ve been examining my life and my heart because even though I know I’ve done well and have amazing people in my life, God is trying to tell me there is so much more potential that I have. I can’t explain this any further, I’m still trying to figure out what that means. The future is unclear to me and I believe God is shaking me up because I’ve been too comfortable and too much in the same routine.
I really believe this has been my life lately: Insanity. The definition of the word: doing the same things over and over and expecting different results.
I wouldn’t say I’ve been living a bad life lately. If anything in certain areas I’ve much enjoyed it because I’ve been doing what I want to be doing. Only making Kelsea happy.
It’s time to get out of this insanity routine.
Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. Galatians 5:25